Sure Read!

I came across these two books at PCBS (Philippine Christian Bookstore) yesterday while killing time before going to my small group dinner and I thought these would be a good read. Friends told me that these two are really good books only that they're a bit pricey but I think it's a good investment. Each book costs 450php so I'm starting to save. Yay!

However, a friend told me just a while ago that Wild at Heart is on sale at Book Sale. Wow! That's awesome, right? So I'm scouting the mall later to grab a copy! And I hope I find one. This is gonna be so exciting!! 

SOLA (State of the Life Address)

Yesterday PNOY had his SONA, and now it is my time to shine. Haha! I just wanna give you guys an update on the state of my life right now. As you can see I look quite bummed since it's a rainy Tuesday and I've decided to just stay at home and unwind. I've also committed to passionately read Breaking Dawn. But it took me a long time before I could finally start reading it because I'm not really into Bella, you know. I dunno, I just find her too vulnerable. (Or is this only a post-Hunger Games effect where Katniss was arguably cunning?) So I'm reading it for the sake of Edward and also to avoid CRS (Can't Relate Syndrome) during the premiere. Hehe! But I promise I'll enjoy it. And yeah, I know this is a not-so-update update, but I'll blog a little longer next time.

Thanks!

Today I found it in my heart to just thank God for all He's done for me. To really appreciate the things He's given me, even the things that I find not in my favor, most of the time, because I'm such a loser. I wanna take this time to show the entire universe what a great God I have and tell everyone that no matter how strong and mighty He is, He still has the softest heart for me. That He bleeds for me in a bloody special way. I know I've really been a brat who keeps on whining and whining over everything. Who won't stop from carrying out my manipulative tantrums until I get what I want. I know I've been selfish, conceited, prideful, and unforgiving all this time. But I thank God for the compassion He has for me, for the grace that saved me from the hands of the enemy. I remember the times when I was so desperately longing for someone to love me as much as I love him only to realize that the Greatest Lover is so eagerly pursuing me all along. How could I be so stupid. How could I be so blind. Needless to say, with that I won't have to be insecure. :) I thank Him that I do not have to earn His love for He generously pours it out one me like rain on a summertime. I thank Him for my parents whom in them, He shows what a loving Father He is. I thank Him for my brother whose love and friendship always remind that He is indeed a God of relationships. I thank Him for friends who never stop encouraging, caring, and praying, and for those who make me keep in mind that His Word is the best read ever. And more than anything else, I thank God for Jesus whom He, without a hint of a doubt, sent to the world to die for me and for everyone else for His honor and glory. So thank You, Lord, for being the God that You are. Thank You for loving me...for calling me by name. Thank you for choosing me to be Your own. JUST thank You! :)

The HUNGER Fever

I'm sorry for my never ending nagging, guys. :) I just had to post this. For a while, posting HG stuff on my FB wall and everywhere else and flooding my every blog like crazy is what suffices my hunger for the movie. Nine months to go. So bear with me. And say hello to Katniss Everdeen! ;)

Who Says I'm Dead??

Yo! I've missed everyone lately! There's been too many changes for all of you here. And so for my life! And my hair, too. It looks pretty longer than the last time I took a vain photo of myself, which is really good because she is now cooperating with me after some jurassic years and counting. And guess what. NO MORE HAIR FALL!! Yay! Quite a news. Quite a stretch, eh? Thank God, really! If you only knew how much I've been through with distorted body image. But now, I'm so off the hook, baby! :D And this time it's for real. Therefore I've resolved to really take good care of my hair like not drowning it with awful lot of chemicals. Who wants to get bald here? Definitely NOT me, you know. Down the line, It's been such a long time since I've last blogged. Not to mention my ever so lingering Hunger Games elation which kept me from writing all this time. A week ago, I've finished reading the trilogy's last book, Mockingjay. I'm so wowed by its finale. Really credible for such a happy ending. And jeez, I can say I still can't get over it. Let alone me thinking about Peeta Mellark all the time and all the gorgeousness that he is. Of course, the undying love triangle since Twilight. I'm definitely watching the movie next year! :)

Just so you Know :)

Was about to make an LB tonight but I was feeling ambivalent. I guess I just don't know where to start and how to end it. It's like I couldn't find the right words. It's like I can't figure myself out. What is even wrong with me? Another thing is, I'm not even in love to begin with. Or maybe I just need a bit of an inspiration, is that it? Well, so much for the long awaited LB. It will have its proper time. For now I just wanna unwind through this post. (Getting rid of the pressures, ya know?). I missed blogging and the entire blogosphere. Things have been so hard on me lately and I've realized that my life has been sort of a mess these past few months. I've been struggling on my emotions a lot so that keeps me whining and wandering on the inside. However, in spite of all this, God has really been good to me. Yes He has and will always be. He keeps me in His love. And I should keep lisnin' too. :)

Love out!

Hey everyone! It's been quite a while, eh? Nothing special to post today really. Just droppin' buy to give you some love. Actually, I've been working on something lately.(Something special and exclusive for you, guys!) My blog BFF's and I call it LB or Love Blog. Yes, we're cheesy like that! But you know, I just can't seem to get it done. I wanted it to really come out as a Love Blog and not Hate Blog since I can't write about the good things anymore. I dunno, maybe I'm just in my bitter-bitteran mode as of late. That's why it's so friggin' hard to write about him in a more all-roses-and-butterflies way. But I will try. My hardest. I will try to think about the happy times we've been together and the times when our love was young and all I can ever dream of. *Le sigh  

First day of Hunger Games. In the meantime, I'll have to read the first book online until I can finally afford to buy the hard copy. This goes to show I'm straining my eyes in like forever? And, can you see the indecisiveness on my face? I just can't seem to choose the right background for this blog. I've been deciding since last night. But, I've also been meaning to be girly so how about pink?

Greetings from my bedroom! :) I don't have any more decent photos to post tonight, so I will be very vain if you won't mind. Hehe. Yes, that's me, looking all haggard. Creepy right? It's the natural nurse look. NO DARK CIRCLES, NO HARDWORK. Haha!

This was taken earlier, just after church and some malling. Uhm, yes. Today was great, talk about Easter and The Great Exchange. 

Thank You, Jesus, for what You've done. Today, I resurrect with you. Free I am! <3

Just so you know I'd have to wrap it up with this one for today.


Picture-taking can be so fun when you're all bummed the whole day, even if your object is completely plain and yeah, that "B" word again, I won't say it. Heck, how many times should I say it today, anyway? Haha!


This stationary bike is owned by my grandfather given to him by my dad. It was sort of intently overhauled and customized for him because before it totally looked like a complete junk. Another thing is that, he has to be comfortable on it. And have fun on it. He needed this for his therapy against hip fracture. So it must be extra special. I dunno how it was all put together but surely the one who assembled this thing is genius. So hey, take a closer look. Isn't that resourceful? What an epic piece of art!

And one more for the day, because I can't get over sorbetes' latest adventure (Cookies 'n Cream for a flavor). Mango plus Cookies 'n Cream for mama all mixed up. 


Also: spot the outfit. Mother na mother! Haha!

Because there is never really enough chance to go to the mall for ice cream on a Holy Thursday. Thanks to Mr. Ice Cream man who dropped by the village to give us joy.


And yes, Cookies 'n cream for sorbetes. All things are possible, eh? 

Could I be more boring? I don't know what else to say about flowers except that they're one of God's most adorable creations. And unless someone gives me a bunch. Happy Holy Week! :)

This photo was taken in summer some two years ago when I first came here in Iloilo for work. It came to me that it has already been two years since. Seriously, two years? Boy that is so fast! So fetch! Haha!


And my hair: it's always been a disaster.


Forgive my insensibility. It's my day off. It's Holy Thursday. And I'm pretty jaded.


Photo by Alvin Paver

This is just an evidence of what I've been ranting about for the past two weeks. (Sorry for the image quality; I had to do some downsizing in order to upload it. Internet connection is a bit wonky today so yeah.) 


I don't actually know how it came to be but, one day I just woke up with a massive hair fall. And I practically hate it to death. As in, a slight touch can bring about a detachment of a single strand. Hay naku! I couldn't even comb my hair and stuff. Worse, I couldn't style it. Ugh. And what really scares me off is going bald anytime soon. Well not really naman sana noh! 'Cause it might be the end of the world for me if that happens. Huhu! I'm attending a phenomenal wedding pa naman next month. And I'm too broke to buy a wig. Hello? That's strictly out of the budget. 


It's just that, the roots of my scalp are a little bit weak right now. I've read an article about my condition that says it may be a Telogen or the resting phase of the scalp. So the pores are pretty much open most of the time, at this point in time. Another one says that it may just be a cause of some emotional stress, so it's just normal. Well I just hope with fingers crossed it's plainly physiologic. But up to when is this going to last? 


Good thing though, I've noticed I have lesser hair falling lately. For about two days already? And I believe it's with the help of the WONDER Minoxidil Regrow (Hair Regrowth Treatment for Men and Women). I don't get paid for this. Trust me, I'm not into advertising. I'm just grateful to my friend, Zendy, for recommending this product to me. We're close like that, haha! She also had her balding issues in the past and has won the fight like awesome. Thanks to the maker of this product too, you make me SO VERY happy!! 


Superb, really. In a matter of 3-4 applications, you gradually get the strength of your hair back. It has some nutrients in the product to do it. Only a bit pricey but anyhow you get the worth of what you paid for.  


So... as of this post, I'm expecting to see best results in the near future: stronger roots, healthier strands, and a happier me. You can make sabunot of my hair all you want! I won't even mind. And lastly, 'Imma get all the guys get tangled on me to add! Just kidding!


Oh wait. Haven't watched the movie Tangled yet. Is it good? :) Maybe next time.

Heyloo baloo!! Look who's rising from the ashes! Well hello guys, it's been a week without internet. Which means it is a week of torture for my flesh. Hahaha! FYI, I embarked on a week of media fasting, and the last two days of it were the hardest because the temptation to access the net is totally crapping out on me. The sight of my computer and the thought of my mounting FB notifications are completely itching. However, thank God! If not because of His great love and mercy, I'd be dead by now. On the sane side though, t'was quite a week to be reckoned with. Learned lots of things and the revelations were just as stunning as ever. (Happy me!) Also, I got the chance to finish J. Piper's book and meditate on my life for the past months. Oh how I sucked, I realized. Yet gratefully, God makes all things new and every moment of transformation is a sweet act of grace from Him. Anyway, I think I'll end here for now, though it hasn't been so much of me and my whereabouts for this post. I'm feeling a little laid back today so... catch 'ya!  :)

Blog Woes and Why's

Every blogger has blogging issues, I suppose. Unless you were born to write; you do not have to deal with that. I started blogging for the sake of having somewhere to vent my feelings out whenever it's socially unacceptable to do so (since I authorize only a few to read through my blog by default). And by that I mean, everytime I become lion-angry or just plainly overjoyed. Which hasn't happened yet by far. But never, ever did I expect to get the hang of it. It's sooo addicting! In a good way. And I'm learning new things everyday. I discovered that having an online access of your thoughts and feelings the other day or week or month or even year is just genuine. A recap can make your day. Or break it. It depends. However, lately, I kinda have this frustration of not being a natural blogger. Or of trying too hard sometimes. I just feel that I have to max out on eveything. Maybe because I'm not a born writer, is that so? Or I didn't write in the school paper back in highschool or college? (not that I'm fixated to that,okay). Or is it just me? Unlike others, writing just comes to them naturally. As for me, I'd still have to squeeze out words out of my head to compose a good piece; and have to do it on unholy hours just to unleash my super writing powers. It has a time frame, mind you. And you just wouldn't like it 'cause it gives me dark circles the next day. Nevertheless, I'm pretty much enjoying it. TO THE SKY! The whole idea of it to me is genius because it's the kind that channels who you really are on the inside. Or in some other ways, you can easily mask everything aside. Only keep in mind that what you try to show the world brings out the best of you.

Patience: More than just a Virtue

Sunday is a favorite day. I already said that in my now defunct old blog over a month ago. And up to now, it's still keeping up to its reputation of being my favored day of the week. I have such good memories of so, so many Sundays, and that includes today!


Just this afternoon, I went to church with mama and my cousin. The sermon was all about sowing and reaping, planting and harvesting, right timing, etcetera (from their Sermon Series called "Overflow" ). In short: PATIENCE. A thing everybody keeps learning every single day and still would fail on application. It wasn't actually the heavy, mind-numbing sermons I usually get fascinated about during other Sunday or Midweek services. It's more like one of those times when you hear a good, gentle sermon and the verses speak to you subjectively then you can nearly jump out of your seat and praise God for His powerful prompting. It was only light and simple but straight to the Christian heart. :)


The message even got deeper and more meaningful to me when the pastor quoted this verse from Ecclesiastes 3:1; "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven." You may say I'm overreacting on this one because it's a commonly used verse and for a time has lost its meaning. But man. Nothing beats God's WORD. Especially when you're going through something, suffice it to say, a spiritual roller coaster, and God speaks to you in a very special way, it always feels like the first time. Coming across this verse again today meant really special to me since I'm on a waiting season of my life and has always been on it. Oh how God sustains.


Soon after the service we went to the mall to buy something in the bookstore. So I headed to the school supplies area and looked for a refill for my ever so loyal retractable red pen, which I regularly use at work since 2009. The salesman handed me over the item and I then rushed to the cashier because it's already half past 7 o'clock in the evening. I was in a slight hurry. And what are the odds, just as I checked my receipt, I found out the salesman gave me the WRONG item! And the price was over half the price of the original refill I wanted to purchase. So I was freakin' out in my mind already. I wanted to get mad and punch somebody in the face now, yet I was sober enough not to do so 'cause I was also in the wrong for not checking it out first. I can only take a SUPER deep breath just to release the tension. The Spirit was in perfect control. Thank God!


Seconds after, I remembered the sermon earlier: Patience. And also what the pastor have said, that patience is more than just a virtue. It's a blessing. WOW. See how God is at work in my life. It is like school, lesson then quiz. I'm utterly stunned. I couldn't help but be amazed at His sovereignty in every situation. I couldn't stop smiling. He just wouldn't allow me to go through life without being molded into His likeness day by day. That is the kind of God that we serve: faithful and mighty in power. And what's even cool? Our God loves surprises! He loves surprise quizzes! Thankfully, I passed that one. Solely by His grace. And for that I'm more than blessed. 

15 Minutes to Blog Just for Fun!

I'm on a challenge right now. I don't know what came into me; maybe adrenaline rush or something. All I know is that at the moment, I'm challenging myself to finish this post in a matter of 15 minutes before I could finally go to work. And literally, as in literally, I only have 15 minutes! And the clock is ticking big time! How fun is that rather than crazy? Haha! In a while, I'll be having my dinner and then hit the shower. My work's at 7 pm until 7 am tomorrow. A 12-hour shift is just as exhausting and boring at the same time on a Saturday night when you must have been reading a good book 'til 12 am. What a bummer! Oh wait. My time is up! Baboosh! :P

My Last Post on Multiply

Title Tenchu
Posted on Friday, June 19th 2009


Thank You God that i can still thank You up to this very day. .Thank You for being the Sovereign God and that my shortcomings do not change who You are.Thank You that nothing happens in my life without Your permission.Thank You for allowing difficult people to come into my life for me to learn to love them and show them that You truly live. Thank You that my failures do not define me because of who i am in You. Thank You that You do not waste every hurtful and painful moment in my life. Thank You for turning my weaknesses into strength. Thank You that the past is behind me. Thank You for the "yes," "no,"  "wait," and silence to every prayer. Thank you for the love found and lost. Thank You that no matter how people look at me, You look at me as white as snow and love me with an everlasting love. I find favor in You..Thank You for my forgetful mom and overprotective dad. Thank You that my brother realizes how empty he is without You. Thank you for good friends. Thank You for allowing McFlurry ice cream to exist. Thank You for Gossip Girl..hehehe. Thank you for my crush.aw. Thank You for the same Spirit that raised Christ from the dead that is in me and for Your Word that gives me strength. Thank You for the hope and the joy that no one can understand. There's so much to thank You for, God. Haii.. yehey! There is none like you.

Spell... HELLO??

Hi again!! Haven't blogged in like forever! It's been quite a busy week for me and seriously, I don't know what to blog about tonight since I was beating my brain all day long at work and I'm all tired for cracking out impressive words in this post as of the moment. Anyway. I've been reading this John Piper book lately called "Don't Waste Your Life." It keeps me sweet company these past few, emotionally-unstable days of my life. It keeps me from being online all the time too, which is a good thing. Hehe! So.. Talk about AMAAAZING, this book is made of it. Really. John Piper is just as vigilant and passionate when it comes to inspiringly persuading his readers to truly live a life that glorifies nothing and no one BUT God alone. Everything he says in this book is so powerfully God-inspired and life-changing. Well, I'm halfway through the end of the pages and I just couldn't wait to get done! I'm so excited! Uhm, did I say I didn't know what to blog about tonight? Haha! Sorry for dragging you into this lazy post, guys. So goodnight and sweet dreams! <3

Joy, the Reward of Obedience

One of my spiritual breakthroughs was when God, for the first time, took a shot at me and  taught me what REAL obedience was all about. I was a tween back then; quite naive and restless, and only cared about what would make me happy. Admittedly, it wasn't that easy. The process of learning it was just waaay over my head!! I had to go through the no way's, the why's, the how's, the but's, and the what if's of life, and wrestle with God before I could finally grasp it's true meaning and purpose. And as the days went on, the pain and the struggle grew even worse! But the best thing about it? It's coming to know who God really is and who He SHOULD be in your life. It's being more intimate with the Lover of our souls. The best reward? Himself. And I praise Him for that. Well, it's not as if I've already mastered obedience as I may sound. Like you guys, I'm still on the process.  And I guess this is going to take me forever until I reach Heaven. Joy unspeakble!!

My Last Post on Blogster

Title: Snap Back!
Posted on Tuesday, March 8th 2011


It's been ages since my last post, since work has finally started off again. Anyway, I'm back here in Iloilo. Coming back felt kind of weird to me and some changes are just going overboard. One is facing the reality of Tita Inday's untimely death and of not having her around anymore. Everybody's missing her so bad that the house seems empty without her. And the grannies are a little too nasty lately which is why I'm learning grace and patience the hard way these days. Hay naku! Thankfully though, work is just fine and everyone around is being nice and kind. Thanks for the pre-summer days too..Dengue season is NOT THAT around the corner. Only problem is, some people at work are not in good terms with each other, so that makes it not perfectly good. On the brighter side, I'm so happy to tell that this blog thingy is a stress-reliever. Works for me now that I've been itching to let  out all this negative energy that's been parasitng me (if there is such a word) all along. Also, a great way to practice for IELTS exams. I need to get 7 in all bands!! (or higher). Still praying 'bout it, though. And really, I'm not that in the know if what I'm deciding on is one that would honor and glorify God. So please, please pray for and with me. :]

Hello, LOVE!

OH Wow!! Seems like blogging has become my bestfriend lately. Awesome as it is, like love, I can only gush about it for one whole day! Like the morning, though you wake up with the worst hangover ever, it's still sobering. And it gives me the creeps I never had before. I told you, it's like love. Haha! Exaggerating aside, please do welcome me here, guys! I used to blog at Blogster. But since it's sort of underground, and it's cooler here, and I'm cool..haha! I figured I'd transfer here, and maybe I'll bring along some of my old posts with me (if I'm not lazy). I know, right? This is gonna be one helluva ride!! So hold on, loves! 'Cause you're in for the ride of a lifetime. :)